Mary Redding

Finished this piece last night for a friend. So tonight or tomorrow I may add text as well as a gif sequence of the step by step. 

A small teaser

Iv never done animation before..(somewhat) So I thought Id better start if I'm going to setup for a larger project. Sooo... 30 frames down 9K+ to go.

A few pieces from over the weekend

Small still life of some flowers I bought on Sunday. Just a little over 2 hours

More block prints, added another layer to the ones below, a bit hard to see.

Picked up some more blocks! And I also received a 12x16 Block in the mail!!

And some more pictures of my desk plants, they seem to be doing well enough.

A little of what goes on with me lately

 I thought I'd post a little clip from the latest Rocky film (6?) where he talks to his son as a small forward, and then get into what goes on in my life right now. (1.50 in is that part I was trying to get posted) 

I recently lost my best friend/ Girlfriend. She didn't die or anything like that but my own reaction to life's road blocks combined with laziness and immaturity in some aspects drove her away. I know everyone gets emotional and poetic with proximity to their latest relationships, but I do know that Iv lost something/ someone really special and irreplaceable and its been a real struggle to pick myself back up at times. I know in someways and even posting this, makes it look as though I'm overly beating myself up or throwing a pity party, but looking at the situation and looking at how I'v let life push me around makes it pretty clear that she has a good reason for leaving. 
   In the past i'v been an extremely independent person, I don't tend to be around a great deal of people or seek out many friends. But when life started to get scary or upsetting I would continuously seek her out for shelter and support instead of facing it and growing. At times she was the only thing getting me up out of bed and the only thing I could do in return is say, "Things are going to be really great in the future were going to have so much"  the only future I was providing was dreams while she would go above and beyond her means to help me.

   Its taken a lot of self reflection and a combination of talking with friends and family to really sort out what it is I have to do, both for myself and for hopefully a future with her. I do know that one of the number one things among figuring out finances, living situation, and other things of that nature is to relearn how to be independent. I'v recently come to the conclusion though that being independent is not only an extremely hard thing to learn while being upset but also.. You cant really prove it... Its a difficult trait to fix because at no point can you go to the other person and say, "Look at how independent I am now" because it kinda proves you aren't. And that's all a scary thought it seems like it leaves so much for chance, but there's nothing you can do but back off and hope in time the other person sees whats become of you. And its very difficult to live with that as your driving force and last thought when it seems like all this work; which is worth while for yourself, may not come across to your other half. 

   So that's kinda the mindset of where I am now. Iv done all the traditional stuff that one can do to try to show change and prove a difference. I think TV and movies fool us into this idea that it only takes an understanding of the issues a relationship faces to move forward and fix things between two people. But in reality it looks like it will take more effort and some time apart because no combination of words fixes whats happened.